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Jo's avatar

i wish there was a little poll section between every canon event to see how many of us experienced the same exact ones. also, 2.5 years in the middle of nowhere is wild.

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caitlyn's avatar

Oh what a fantastic idea. And believe me.. the trauma from those years 😭 one day I’m going to write a book about it

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Koryna Lejune's avatar

we have literally every cannon event and every substack in common lol girl i fear we must be friends

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caitlyn's avatar

Ah no way!? 🤎🤎🤎

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Reba's avatar

“obsession with religious aesthetics & repressed desire” YES yes yes

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caitlyn's avatar

a blessing and a curse 🤎

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Vale - mariposatecknicolor's avatar

the brazilian playlist!! (i'm from Brazil) and the Anthony Bourdain interview <3

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caitlyn's avatar

It’s such a good one!

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Caroline Beuley's avatar

Need to read the days of abandonment !! Sounds amazing!

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caitlyn's avatar

I’m reading it now! 🥰

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Nidhi Mahajan's avatar

“using theory to dodge vulnerability”

Yes

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caitlyn's avatar

🤎🤎🤎

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daphne's avatar

hi, it means so much to me that you've been reading me! you’re one of my absolute favorite people on here. everything you share always feels so thoughtful and warm. i’ve been quietly buying every book you talk about (my digital shelves are basically curated by you at this point, lol). i appreciate you so much 🤎

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caitlyn's avatar

awe thank you! i loved reading this letter by you. i appreciate your support so much, it means the world to me!! 🤎🤎 i hope you've found a book or two that speaks to you 🥰

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Amanda Brown's avatar

wait thank you so much for reading good riddance this just made my day

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caitlyn's avatar

it was such a beautiful letter 🤎

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Amy Clark's avatar

As always, a beautiful collection that feels like poetry.

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Hey Zee's avatar

Heavy on the "realizing you don’t want to end your life, you just want to be someone else" thought. Oooooof.

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Victoria 🦢🍸's avatar

What a wonderful surprise! It means so much to me that my digital garden note inspired you, thank you so much for the mention 🤍 Always admiring your writings Caitlyn! 💌

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li's avatar

realising i didn’t want to die but just wanted to become someone else actually changed me as a person. this was a wonderful read thank you

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Mari's avatar

reread this and listen to Back to Me by the Marias... that's how this feels

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Corinna's avatar

I would love for you to expand upon some of these in a full post...I can relate to so many.

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deb's avatar

love your writing as always 🤎 since you like some brazilian music (and I'm from brazil), try listening to Belchior 🤎

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caitlyn's avatar

you get it 🤎

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