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Sara Calzone's avatar

white oleander is one of my all time favorites! i wrote a similar post last august - the only way out is through.

https://open.substack.com/pub/limoncello/p/art-imitates-life?r=2km8oi&utm_medium=ios

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caitlyn's avatar

Oh thank you so much for sharing this! I can’t wait to read 🤎

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Mark Meier's avatar

Wow, I just started Sylvia Plath's book a week or two ago. I understand those moods completely. I have a few friends that go from ok to the darkness. I have even been done that road. The funny thing about life. At least for a large part of it, unless that paralyzing depression is on, we keep going. I can't explain it but we just get up a go. That is why I think that it always helps to have one or two friends who can be there for you, no matter what, through thick and thin. Be there, not judge, but just be a presence for you to feel in the room. They do not say anything, or do anything, but just sit there with you and let you feel like you aren't alone and someone is watching out for you. A personal lifeguard.

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Brittany Was Here's avatar

Blue Nights and The Bell Jar are my most favorite books! Blue Nights tore me to shreds! These two books I feel like I always re read them!

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berriesandgrapes's avatar

so good to see Luster recommended!!!

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Liv's avatar

“We’ll never have sex” by Leith Ross is an amazing song

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dahlia's avatar

something about you just really gives me Virgo energy and i think that’s superior. not because i’m a virgo, if anything you make me happy to be one along with you but you seem put together in a way that works/matters for you but also very sincere bc life made you realize some shii. if not a virgo, definitely leo.. i know you wrote about it being your birthday month, it’s mine as well! i hope life gets better and your new year is beautiful <3

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Tun's avatar

My most frequent mood - good list. Wishing you all the best!

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Adam Cosgrove's avatar

Hope things get better for you soon Caitlyn, I enjoy reading your posts. And yes, I do enjoy wallowing in my own sadness and misery when it comes; I feel like that’s the best way to move past it, rather than trying to brush it off.

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Jillian's avatar

I love love Lily King! Great recs, I'm going to pick up the Joan Didion one.

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